Every day is a gift!

Dear Diary, 30/08/20 Today is a gift, this is all I have. Life gets hard at times but surely I know why it was hard beause I let it get this way. The minute I said that I'm the owner of my own life and I can do what I want to do things got …

Letter

Hi Sunshine! YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL!!!! What's new with you? How is things, how are you feeling? 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘 Sweet Pie Dear Diary, 12/09/19 Hey, hey I finally sat down and I have a moment to reply Sweet Pie! What's up? Do you work these days? How is your health? There is a lot going on in …

I am me!

Dear Diary, 19/11/2018 "Come and find me when you decide to like yourself." I heard that in the cinema last weekend. This statment said a lot to me! I put so much pressure of trying loving someone but did I even know if liked truly myself. Now, this is powerful statment and I am fully …

Big stuff

Dear Diary, 04/09/18 Things sound sometimes harder than they are... Look at them... Face them and get over them! Madness.... I am on sick leave from work. First time in my life!! I had back surgery done few weeks ago. Surgery was done on my birthday and exactly three years after accident I was in …

The meaning of love

Dear Diary, 01/09/18 I know that may sound mad that I talk over and over and back about love but the truth is that love is everyting. Every human in the earth will have diffrent definition of love. There is few books that came my way in last two weeks. Accident.. no, things don’t happen …

Timing is everyting…

Dear Diary, 06/08/18 Thanks that we met. I’ll tell you story as I always do... I started my new job nine weeks ago. Full of hope and enthusiasm but also very much so fear and doubts and then I heard... "We cannot be brave without fear” and also "Fake it till you make it" I …

Colour Red

Dear Diary, 16/07/2018 Nearly a month since I sit and write. I miss it but no time... Life has been mad... Mad in every possible way. Mad as never has been before. I do so much more thinking now than I ever done in my life. Ha... I know that sound crazy... As I am …

Dancing in the moment

17/06/2018 Dear Diary, How was my week? It's a beautiful evening, I'm on the way from Dublin. I had my course. I learned a lot of new things and I will try to use my new skills in my everyday life. I related and apply theory to a lot of facts from last week. I …

100K… Hundred ways

10/06/2018 Dear Diary, It's early morning. I'm in bed, having a reflection moment. I should be reading and doing homework for my course but my head is full of thoughts, so once I leave them here I will be able to focus again. May run 100km yesterday. Yes, I know mad but an amazing idea. …

Superpowers

01/06/2018 Dear Diary, I lost my superpowers... Well... I'm looking deeper for personal strengths I had and developed over the years, skills like problem-solving, communication or creative thinking, and been able to see the bigger picture. I lost sense of myself, the comfort I had with myself,  feeling good in my own skin that was …

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

Million reasons!!

27/09/17 Dear Diary, It is sad when your husband doesn't remember about wedding anniversary! 18 years... Church... Wedding Vows... Today he told me that we should split up just after I bark on to him! Well... He doesn't want to split... He just saying that... Always and forever! At times I wish he just walk …

Girly time

12/09/17 Dear Diary, Holiday time again... I know hard to belive. I came back last week from Canaries and now going to Poland. Last holiday was family holiday. I had break but didn't really clear my head. I'm worrying about May. He is not himself. I think he is worrying about new job and depression …

I’m drifting

25/08/17 Dear Diary, I'm sitting in the car. My hips and legs killing me. I have a lot of pain. I suppose I had a busy few days at work. All my body aching. Now as I'm aware of the fact that it's ok to have pain things are easier.I understand that life has to …

Busy doing nothing

22/08/17 Dear Diary, Wow... What a day! I left home at 8.15am and I'm just back now 10.45pm. I had a lot of driving. I pamper myself all day long. I have never done that before. In the morning went to Ostopath to get my back fixed. From there I went to get my face …

Reek Sunday

12/08/17 Dear Diary, Omg.... Don't know where to start??!! I have been busy as always... Work... Home... Doctors app... Planing future... and much more. Work has been mad busy for Debs and horse races this time of year.Did lot of up styles. I enjoyed doing them. My creation kicks in 🤣 It's 4.45am Saturday morning... …

Hot Day

17/07/17 Dear Diary, May is in the shower, dogs are in my bed and all I can say… I had fantastic day!! Sun make us tan, sun make us warm but mainly sun make us happy!  I'm happy today, I'm thankful for today!! I hope for another beatiful day again. I had to work today …

Happy girl…that’s me today

15/07/17 Dear Diary, Late evening. I'm sitting and meant to watch TV but I'm not tuned in… I'm tired but also happy that I could work for two full days and not expirience pain in my hand. For sure injection has helped so much. I still have pain in my joints and muscles but hopefully …

Small celebration

04/07/17 Dear Diary, My hand is getting better. Very little pain left. In that occasion I decided to celebrate. I will be able to work and do things I didn't do for milion ages 😉 I started already... But not yet work... I ask May to do things, for once he didn't mone. He tidy …

Clouds and fears

16/06/17 Dear Diary, I feel much better... Much better. I had physio three times in the past two weeks. Finally I can move my hand and finally I can start writing. There is a lot that happened in the last few weeks... I got very bad flair up of tennis elbow. Too much work. When …

Evening walk

18/05/17 Dear Diary, As usuall my work suck me in for last few days but this evening I got to finish earlier than normal.  I didn't know what to do... I was going to clean and tidy up the house but I went for a walk instead. Evening was so lovely. Sun was still high, …

Let go

14/05/17 Dear Diary, I woke up very early today. Every so often I have pains in my lower back. Few weeks ago I went to Ostopath and he explain that all this comes from my hips after accident. Two years ago we went for spin to Dublin and this all happen... May was driving. It …

Time for reflection

11/05/17 Dear Diary, Finally I got time to rest and relax. Sun is still shining. I recharged batteries. I will have again busy weekend but I feel so Positive and full of energy. I'm too relaxed and a bit lazy to sit and think so I will do go to bed now and come back …

Crazy time

02/05/17 Dear Diary, Crazy weeks... Work.. Work and only one day off for last few weeks. My day off was great. Jay went to get nails done and I went to Tesco to kill time. I bought a lot of small things. I tested them. Some are really good others are just ok. I bought …

Work…Work…Work!!

19/04/17 Dear Diary, Has been awhile since last time. I'm not sure if I was too lazy to sit and put few words together or there was too much going on and my head couldn't fit it all. A lot happened since. I have been busy lady hahaha I worked a lot. I went on …

Boss of happiness

16/04/17 Dear Diary, Today I'm boss of my own happiness!  I wasn't in touch for a while…work…work…work!! When I was on holiday I made lot of plans and projects and all done now!! I'm proud of myself but I'm even more proud of May. He did most of the hard work. I decorated my hair salon, …

Hard day!!

25/03/17 Dear Diary, I'm in bed. So exhausted physically and emotionally. I don't even have energy to think. I hope good sleep will recharge my battery 😉 Good night. Love Kay ❤ xx

Kisses 💋

21/03/17 Dear Diary, Dublin... Left home early as always going to Dublin. Plan for the day was... shopping but not me this time. Jay went shopping with her two pals. They going on school tour next month so she need few basics. But main reason was to pick up Jay's passport. We got it. Sorted …

Nicely done

11/03/2017 Dear Diary, Early morning... like every Saturday. I got my hair washed and I decided to dressed nice. I wore heels. Top from Penneys, shoes from Penneys and jeans from Top Shop. I also got last day nice lacey bra(orange colour) in TkMaxx so I wore it. My recent thing is that if I …

Start to happen

18/02/2017 Dear Diary, It's Saturday evening... Finally I'm sitting down and relaxing. This week wasn't too busy at work but I was all over the place. Just today start feeling better again. Last few weeks May wasn't too well. I miss him when he goes to his own zone. I get worried about him which …

Monday Family Day

30/01/2017 Dear Diary, Left home as planed. Very early morning. Got to Dublin just about time. Went to ambassy. Suprisingly all went quick and smooth. Surly where me and Jay went after... shopping. We spend few hours in the shops. I got few bargains. Can't belive that I only spend 34e. That's extremely good knowing …

All kinds of colours…Optymist…

29/01/2017 Dear Diary, All week flew. I was busy at work. Everyone is looking for colours and up styles. Now... Spring is coming... daffodils are in the shops so getting more colorful around. Even May went to the garden and tidy up there. I can't wait for long evenings... sitting outside... if it's dry hahaha. …

I’m back

21/01/2017 Dear Diary, 21/01/2017 Dear Dairy, Great weekend... Finally got to sit down and relax. Got to put few words together. Yesterday I finished earlier than usual... happy days, Not too often I have that opportunity. I was going to write something yesterday and I fell asleep before I realised. I slept for over 12 …

Sunday fun

18/12/16 Dear Diary, My favorite word to start is "So" or "Well" but today I'm going to start from... Sunday... it's long time since last touch with you dairy!!! Very early morning... I'm on the way to Dublin. I'm in company of May, Jay and her friend. Girls going shopping... I'm going to have great …

Sick Relationships

19/11/16 Dear Diary, As continued to my story ... I  made May talk to his family even though he didn't want to... but I belive that family should be together no matter what. I was wrong, there is no point to keep sick relationships for sick of pretending. I said in the letter that we …

Life is unexpected

05/11/2016 Dear Diary, I'm sad... I'm slowly getting over my sad days but still can't believe that so many sad and bad things happened again. I will start from beginning... I thought that my bad days or even times are over for now but no they not... they always waiting for good moments to arise …

Beautiful Sunday

11/09/16 Dear  Diary, Sunday afternoon…I’m sitting and relaxing… for a change. I can’t believe that I am saying that. Me... sitting and relaxing are not one team… I am learning slowly how to do this and not feeling guilty. Outside wet and wintery but I feel cosy and very sexy… May told me that too…I …

Happy Times

05/09/16 Dear Diary, It’s a long time since I have been sitting down and writing… I miss that so much but my life has been very busy. I don’t even know where to start… Well so… Firstly… all decorations and painting has been successfully finished. There is very nice feeling to be able sit down …

New changes

25/07/16 Dear Diary, New week. My second week of new changes. This week I want to be even more focused then ever. I get up.. unfortunately too much TV yesterday so wake up with headache. I think that's still my detox I hope that will go away soon as I don't remember when last I …

How was my week?

25/07/16 Dear Diary, I started last Monday my new resolution. I was excited and I still am. I started a food dairy, I did that before but to be honest I lie to myself. Now I don't want to do that any more. Monday was great day.. I was feeling sick.. I think because of …

Long week

17/07/16 Dear Diary, Long week... There was no excitement, pure routine almost boring life. There has  to be weeks like that but I'm sure if I had plan for last few weeks things would been better and more organised. So now I come with plan for this new week... Main thing for me is to …

Me before You

07/07/16 Dear Diary, Well again... I don't  know what to say... Every time I loose hope for better time or better things... Things just happen 🙂 Me,Jay and two other friends went to cinema. Went to see "Me before You" I knew  this film is sad but actually was funny and very sad at the …

There is never a dull moment…

02/07/16 Dear Diary, I watched few days ago match the Poland vs Portugal. There was lots of passion and competitiveness but results are always sad for one side.. Polish team got very disappointed. I felt sorry for them. Well, LIFE IS ACTUALLY LIKE A GAME. In the last while life has been busy lots of …

Very Personal Story

19/06/16 Dear diary, I'm going to start this way. Things I'm going to post today were very difficult and sad for me for many years. I only understood things better when I face them all 3 years ago. I denied them and push them all to the back of my head for many and many …

All is good!

17/06/16 Dear Diary, Last night went to bed at 4.30 in the morning... What in the name of God I was doing... I don't know..  🙂 I was reading, writing and thinking... Sometimes I have like that. This morning some lady ask me how I get on and how I'm feeling after surgery, Good question?  I …

Good thoughts

16/06/16 Dear Diary, I really don't know where to start. Loads of things has happened since the last time. Last Sunday I had planed to sit down write finally story of my life. Didn't happened.. Well, I wake up in very bad humor.. Must be build up of tiredness from last few days. I spend …

New day… new chance

11/06/2016 Dear Dairy, Last night was very late night. I listened to the rain, giggling to myself. And eventually fell asleep. Tent was very cossie. May didn't sleep hard and strong... as usually. I heard him twisting and turning. I thought " he is thinking, thinking about long day... is he worry... I thought again...I …

End is often new begining

10/06/16 Dear Diary, I  was relaxing and sleeping  after my surgery, and I had to sort out my thoughts after Doctor told me that I have given them very hard time... I stop breathing ..for minute..   Remember.. what I told you.. remember..  I felt that there was some drama according to my  sugary. I had …

Challenge and Positivity

08/06/16 Dear Diary, I wake up at 6.30am. Sun was shining..  I thought.. this is going to be great day..My surgery will be very successful.. I was expecting some pain but so far that didn't happened. But more so I was worried about Jay. She started exams today, first big one in her life. I …

Relaxing time…

07/06/16 Dear Diary, Actually, I don't know where to start today.. My day was long.. Very busy.. but now I'm in bed.. In the hospital bed. It's very comfortable so I'm glad because I will have to spend few days here. I promise to put some good post soon and tell you more about my …